hrm....

Okay so I thought Gabe might be allergic to Duck eggs, now I'm wondering if it could be raspberries or perhaps the pectin I use to make jam? He had a big of a red spot (not as bad as the last time though) last night after having oatmeal with raspberry jam and he may have had the jam the same days he had the duck eggs, so I need to do a test on him. :( Also today he's got little red spots all over his face. I have to check his belly too. :(

Grrrr. I think that's the hardest part of this. Not always knowing will drive you freaking nuts. It could be technically anything, even the oats that I made. Grrrr!

I wish there was a way to test for every food and additive and such that is out there, but there just isn't. Maybe someday we will figure out a better method of testing that is more accurate. Sigh. They have done more research on boobjobs, viagra etc, than they have for real diseases. That's so sad. I know that food allergies have had a lot of research done, but it's just not enough. We need to know more! And fast! The numbers are growing too quickly! Our children's lives are in danger! We need to know what is causing this!

I had a dream last night that it was Gabe's first day of school and he was being picked up at the corner, but there was a parade on our street. They were throwing candy and food and just before the bus came I realized I didn't have his emergency kit on me and that his face was swelling shut! I had to run up 6 flights of stairs (don't ask me why, but we suddenly lived on the 6th floor of a very tall building) and find his kit and then run back down to get it to him before he got on the bus (my neighbor watched him while I ran) It was scary. I worry that someday some of that will happen. :(

The Allergy Mom Prayer by Niccie Jackel
Please let my child outgrow this
Please let my child be able to be a normal kid
Please let my child outgrow this
Please let him be able to enjoy his food.
Please let my child outgrow this
Please don't make me ever need the epi pen
Please let my child outgrow this
Please don't let this get any worse
Please let my child outgrow this
please God don't let him develop anymore allergies.
Please let my child outgrow this